Inadequate

Do you ever feel inadequate?

 

~because you only spend two hours a day with your daughter before she falls asleep and you have to wait to see her again the next evening for just two short hours

~because you only have enough energy at the end of the day to throw your clothes on the floor; they make it to neither a hanger nor the laundry basket...

~because you don't cook dinner.

~because when you are with your baby for the short time you are able to see her every day, you keep thinking of all the crap you have to do tomorrow??

~because your daughter is almost three and a half months and you still have yet to put her letters/name on her wall in her room rendering her nursery unfinished.  still.

~because your organization skills are that of a high schoolers, or worse

~because you go out of the house - on a quick errand - without an extra outfit in the diaper bag and she shits allll over the place.  Murphy's Law biotch.

~because every other mother in the universe appears to have it all together and you sooo don't

~because your lesson plans seem juvenile and boring

~because your baby doesn't have a "routine"

~because you feel like you don't do enough as a wife, or a mom, or even a teacher for that matter...

because sometimes I do.

This too shall pass.



I'm quite overwhelmed.  I hope that Mark and I get into a routine once school is well underway...

Yesterday, (after a little a lot of nudging nagging) I came home to a tidied up/clean house.  My dinner in the crockpot was turned on low at 12PM as instructed and so I was able to sit on the couch in my jammies with Lucy, who was awake for a while longer yesterday evening.  Glad that was "my Friday" because it was a good end to a very life/routine-disrupting week.

We got an unexpected day off today because of flooding.  I'm not happy to have to make up a day already... BUT I AM glad to spend it with my girl :) :)